when will things get better? n wen they do, how long will things stay better? cuz lately, it just seems like even if things do get better, its only momentarily. i feel like im trying my best to take things one day at a time, but i still feel like im stuck in the same spot. ive taken test after test n sum i admit its the grade that i deserve. but once ive gotten used to things n started to take things really seriously, i did even worse than i did before. how can this be? n y is this happening only to me? sumtimes i just feel so tired...tired of having to try w/o it going newhere. it just makes me think, what's the point if its gonna turn out worse than wen i hadnt really tried? its just been a downward spiral, n rite now, it seems neverending. i keep trying to push myself out of the spiral only to find myself falling even deeper. n is there even such a thing called fairness in this world nemore? i hate being negative, but sumtimes it just feels like theres so much u can do...n wen uve tried ur hardest w/o ne good, u just dun no wat to do. iono...
on the other hand, i no i shuld try to b more positive n that no matter how hard things get that i shuldnt give up. i mean, college itself wasnt as scary as i had thot it wuld b. its just that it seems like all it has been is 1 rough patch after the other. n it just makes me wonder whether there will ever b a smooth patch.
iono...all i no is that i need 2 put up more positive posts n stop ranting on negative stuff. no1 said it was gonna b ez rite? just have to try harder...
15 years ago