i just...

...don't wanna let it go...

all at once.

i feel so many things all jumbled in 1 rite now. both the good and the bad. for the past wk ive been wrrying a lot about my asa midterm grade cuz the instructor is new n her grading system is very very VERY hard. but today i found out that i did pretty good on it=] so thats one thing i got off my chest. however, i just learned sumting this past wkend that culd probably change things frm the way they r rite now. probably for the worse. iono. this incident adds more pressure to me to have to do good n wrk harder. i cant falter. n once again im bak to having to b strong. is there netime for me 2 brk down n wish that problems will eventually solve themselves? things just keep coming up one after another. its times like these wen i start to wonder y things have to b this rough n y we constantly have to stress n wrry about all these problems that keep coming up, wen in the end, none of us is gonna get out of all this alive neway? just a thot...

huh.

sumthing peculiar happened the other day.
call it fate or call it a coincidence.
it just so happens that on a certain day, at the exact same time, at the exact same place...2 ppl...sumthing totally uncalled for.
is there ne meaning in it?
mayb im overthinking it...but theres always that mayb, that unwavering glimmer of hope that keeps 1 going...

in the meanwhile...bak to calc hw ><

Now

it's been a long while since i've posted. i think it's about time to jot down sum thots. 

many things have changed ever since college started. we're not those lil carefree kids nemore. it seems as if evrything we're involved w/ now comes w/ responsibilities. evrything is ur call. ur the 1 picking ur path in life. its time to think about who u wanna become and wat u want out of life. however, it seems as if im always stuck in the the iono stage. ive found that ive become a lot quieter than before. iono if that shuld b a good thing or not. it seems like i feel like that sumthing in me has changed but i cant put a finger to it. thots constantly go thru my mind. im suddenly scared. ive noticed that w/ evrything i do, i have this fear. a fear of putting a step forward. ever since june of 2008, ive found that ive grown a lot closer to my family, especially my sister. no matter wat i do, i want to give them the best. n piggybaking on anh, i also feel that i havent made an effort of keeping up w/ friends. for sum reason i feel like our grp will always b there for each other. whether thats just for now or yrs down the road, i hope that feeling never goes away. we've all been thru too much 2gether. hopefully, distance wun pull evrything apart. iono, this whole blog is a whole jumble of thots. its not meant to b one flowy blog of things that make sense. i just felt like so much has been going on in my head that mayb i shuld write it out. the real world is intimidating...