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it's been a long while since i've posted. i think it's about time to jot down sum thots. 

many things have changed ever since college started. we're not those lil carefree kids nemore. it seems as if evrything we're involved w/ now comes w/ responsibilities. evrything is ur call. ur the 1 picking ur path in life. its time to think about who u wanna become and wat u want out of life. however, it seems as if im always stuck in the the iono stage. ive found that ive become a lot quieter than before. iono if that shuld b a good thing or not. it seems like i feel like that sumthing in me has changed but i cant put a finger to it. thots constantly go thru my mind. im suddenly scared. ive noticed that w/ evrything i do, i have this fear. a fear of putting a step forward. ever since june of 2008, ive found that ive grown a lot closer to my family, especially my sister. no matter wat i do, i want to give them the best. n piggybaking on anh, i also feel that i havent made an effort of keeping up w/ friends. for sum reason i feel like our grp will always b there for each other. whether thats just for now or yrs down the road, i hope that feeling never goes away. we've all been thru too much 2gether. hopefully, distance wun pull evrything apart. iono, this whole blog is a whole jumble of thots. its not meant to b one flowy blog of things that make sense. i just felt like so much has been going on in my head that mayb i shuld write it out. the real world is intimidating...