liberation

as of now, all the ppl i no who r gonna b going to college in the east coast will have left ca. its sad to have to c one friend after the other leaving. the reality of summer coming to an end, our grp of friends being split to diff colleges, n the start of a new chapter in each of our lives is beginning to hit hard. i remember starting to get this sense the day we went to visit nancy @ her dorm in berkeley. seeing evrything, its like i suddenly realized that all this is real. we're all going to b living on our own, w/o parents, n evrything is really gonna b on us. wen summer really comes to an end, we're gonna b in college, each going on2 our separate ways. however, friends will always b at heart no matter wat the distance may b. this brings me to the second wash of liberation that took over me this summer. it happened on the nite of patricia's farewell dinner. we were all just talking about college n how it really is just gonna b us w/ no parents to nag us nemore. n it was hieu's example that got me. how parents wuld nag us about going out or hanging out late, sumtimes getting mad or angry w/ us. but as time goes on, they start to realize that we're able to take care of ourselves, that we're responsible. as i was looking out the window into the nite during the car ride back to abby's house, i was thinking 'this is real. this is really happening. we're on our own n we have to b responsible for ourselves now.' i think the realness of the feeling is also due to the fact that i just turned 18 like a day before n that number just has a certain effect. haha. neways, this is starting to drone on but i guess wat i really wanna say is...no matter where each of us is @, our friendships will always stay close at heart. n that altho summer is closing in, we all have christmas to look forward to=]